Grace

Grace: courteous good will, smoothness and elegance of movement (google definition) As this is my first blog in over 12 months, I will just focus on Grace independent of anything else and hope that the more complicated stuff comes later! It is good to be back though!! :) When I think of Grace, I always go straight to the ballerina: graceful, elegant and light on her feet; flowing smoothly through the moves to the music; never faltering, or at the very least being able to move gracefully through their mistakes so that they lay person never knew there was one. All the things so completely foreign to me all I can do is stare in silent awe… But I know there is a different kind of Grace, the one that exists in our souls, shines through in our spirit. For me, this is about being soft and elegant in your mannerisms and interactions with people. It also has an element of empathy and humility that goes beyond the physical. Grace is about accepting what is, and quietly standing in your power as you do it. It is also about going with the flow of life, allowing things to change and accepting when they do - moving with grace through conflict and struggles. This also adds an element of dignity and integrity as you remain strong and centred. Unfortunately for me, these are all the things I struggle with... On the physical – I am extremely heavy footed, stomping around my house no matter how quiet I try to be (but I am naturally a loud person…). When I do sport of some kind, and I make a mistake, I make such a fuss that everyone knows about it, I can’t hide my own frustration at myself. The spiritual – I am a lover of routine and dependability, and struggle when life throws the little curve balls at me. I tend to buck back like an angry bull rather than flow through it like the ballerina who miss-stepped. My lesson in all this is about surrender: surrender to the process; surrender to the flow of life; surrender to the mother and father and follow their guidance; surrender to my own authentic, higher self and listen to her advice; surrender my expectations of self and others and accept what is with assertiveness. If I can do this, maybe that sense of grace that is missing from my life will appear? Or maybe not… Either way, it is clear that surrender and acceptance will be better for me in the long run, even if grace is perpetually absent.